Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Don't you worry, don't you worry child See heaven's got a plan for you Don't you worry, don't you worry now

Jobba Jobba Jobba!! Work Work Work!!  This off season I wanted to try out a few seasonal jobs.  I have always worked with soccer and I could not be happier but, this offseason I decided to continue coaching as well as take up some new and very different challenges.

 I coach at least four nights a week, I work part-time at Toys R Us, I work part time at Publix and I am an on call banquet server! On top of that I am training every morning and spending as much time with the ball as I can. 


I have completed the orientations for both Publix and Toys R US. During the training of all these companies I have met all sorts of people, and learned many different ways to run a business. It has been extremely interesting and is becoming a very neat experiment. 

 How do they treat their employee's? What is their business plan? How do they reach their goals? Can I incorporate it into what I want to do in the future? Will I be able to use anything I learn and apply it to my dream of one day opening up my own soccer club? How do people act on a job? Do they love their jobs? Do they want to be the best at what they do? Are they just going through the motions? Why are they there?

During the first Publix orientation the man talking to us gave us an incredible historical insight of what the company is all about.  He spoke with so much passion; you could just see that he really loved what he was doing.  He loves and talks about Publix like I talk about soccer.  It was amazing and refreshing to see someone with such enthusiasm. It was contagious. 

Another manager teaching the class talked about theft and how it makes her so mad when people steal because she works hard for her job and that is her well earned money.  She went on to say that "she doesn't want to be there but, she has to because she needs the money to survive. " This lady seemed to enjoy what she was doing but not really love it. I could tell she has another passion; maybe it is her family. I don't know but right then I relized how lucky I was. I show up every single day to my job in Sweden, not just because I have to but, because I want to.  I am so lucky because number one I have a job and number two I absoutly love what I am doing. I would not want to live life any other way. 

This manager went on saying that this company is great because of the job security it offers.  If you have a job at Publix you do not have to fear getting laid off or the company shutting down even though the U.S. is facing a horrible financial crisis. I dazed of at this point and thought about the word "fear."  My mind brought me back to this past season when our sports psychologist asked me and my team to list our fears. My teammates all answered with different versions of fearing failure; missing a PK, missing a free kick, etc. Not one of the fears stated has ever even entered my brain. There was not one thing said that I was afraid of. The first thing I thought of were things of my past; things nothing to do with soccer. Soccer is my place where I can forget all the horrors. When I play I want to bring about hope; hope in something more, hope in that the people watching will be happy and forget all the horrible things that happen every day, even if it is just for a second. With my job, unlike publix, there is always a since of uncertainty. How are teams financially? Will they be able to afford foreigners? What are the fates of different leagues and teams around the world? It is always a little scary when you do not know exactly what awaits you.  Fears, yes I have fears but I am willing to take the risk and face them.  What do I have to lose? nothing. 

I know that jobs at first may not be as glamours as you have dreamed but you have to start somewhere. One of my best friends told me you can't always start at the top but rather start at the bottem and work your way up. She said, "you can not be the CEO right away." This statement really hit me and it helped me make some very big decisions. 

It also made me think of my first job. My club soccerplus offered me a job my junior year in high school. I would go there everyday after school, work and then train. I was just the assistant. I would clean the office, file, set up field, fill water jugs and do whatever they needed me to do.  I was the lowest on the totem poll but I did the best I could every single day and I loved it! The people I was around were great and I looked forward to coming into work everyday.  I moved up and became a staff coach during the summers. I have done and seen almost every single step it takes to run a club properly. I know what the "little" guy has to do, I am a player and I know what the big bosses have to do.  I have done almost everything. Then this past year I started and became  the director of the first camp at IFK Gavle. The experience I had at soccerplus helped me run everything properly and smoothly. I learned from the best! One day when I run my own business I will know the importance of each role because I have done everything. Every role has a purpose. I think no matter what you are doing, you should try and be the best at what you do! Wether I am cleaning toilets at my old club or starting the first soccer camp in Gavle Sweden I want to be the best.  



I have this dream, this vision.  I know I will do whatever it takes to make it happen. My job is my passion; I am a soccer player. But now my question is what do people do that do not have the same passion for something? What do they do when they are not excited to wake up every morning? What to they do?! What do they live for? A lot of people say that they work because they have to.. They need the money for rent, food, survival.. In this past week alone I noticed a handful of people that  just go through the motions; they are not doing this because they want to or because they love it. It seems like a vicious cycle that anyone can easily fall in to; to live you need money, to get money you need a job, you need a job so you can live, but If you are miserable at work and then come home and are still miserable; to me you are not really living. There needs to be a change; a chance to be taken.  

When are you the happiest? I found some people simply like interacting with others; some people live for another. It would not matter what they were doing in the world as long as they were able to be with that person or their family. There is no better feeling then knowing you have something great to come home to. I wish that everyone will be able to find their purpose and passion and do what is ever necessary to fill that need.   There are always events in my past that always put a smile on my face. If I look back at all the times I felt honestly and truly happy, I found that my happiness is doing what I love around the people I love.  What is yours?



Friday, November 2, 2012

"tell me what you know about dreams, dreams"


Off season. Rest, Recover, and Rebuild. The off season is a crucial time for the development of every athlete.  The physical demands that soccer puts on the body are great; it is very important after an eight month season or longer that the body is allowed a chance to rest, recover and rebuild. This doesn't mean stop all forms of physical activity but this is a good time for rejuvenation, taking care of any injuries,  and cross training. Cross training allows you to keep your fitness level up as well as training muscle groups that are not usually trained; it can help you become an overall better athlete. The off season is a good time to work on weakness, make small adjustments to your game, put a greater focus on strength training and fitness.

In my off season so far I have jumped into different fitness classes such as spin, kickboxing,  yoga, flexible strength and step.  All are great workouts and very different from what I am used to.   

I spent the first two weeks back in the US in Massachusetts and now I am in Florida.  I am living right near Florida Southern. It is nice because I am able to use the facilities, coach my old kids and do some temporary/seasonal work until I go back to Sweden.  

It feels great to be in Florida! I arrived on Monday; my goal was to be here before Halloween.  When I was younger I hated Halloween; every year it was like a switch went off and all hell broke lose. Because of everything that had happened my lungs had never done well this time of year. I was either in the hospital, at my house, or if I did make it out, I got wheeled around. It was literally like clockwork; I would get so sick and struggle until about the end of March. I hated and absolutely dreaded Halloween. I never had a good  one until I moved to Florida.  I remember Freshman year when Halloween hit and I felt better than I have ever had; I was so relieved to make it through the day normally! Throughout my four years at Florida Southern I did not have one problem on Halloween; it was incredible. I would secretly celebrate every year I made it though healthy; it was a huge milestone for me! 

Last year when I got back from Finland, I was going to spend my first Halloween back in MA. It happened again.. I hit a little bump in the road.  I had an attack, it was one of the worst ones I have had in a very long time.. My lungs went from the historical 88% to 43% and again it started very close to Halloween.. I was devastated. It not only effects me but also my family.  I was so angry that they were going through it again. It was not fair. I could not believe it was happening again. It took me a little while to get back on my feet fully but I did and I felt stronger than ever this past year in Sweden. It is  hard to explain how strong I felt; it was like I could go forever. Everything was going right, I felt fast, strong, fit and felt like I could just go all day.  There were so many times this year I would just look around, take in the environment and be so happy with where I was!


This time I arrived in the US Oct 12th and I had a check up right away. I went through the usual lung function tests and I can proudly say I beat my 88%. I felt like I was reliving the 88% story. (http://jackiebachteler.blogspot.com/2011/08/88.html )  My doctor came in, sat down, looked at my chart and just shook his head.  He said, "last October you were 43%.. right now you are at 90!!!!!" Again, he said he just couldn't believe it!! I have to say I knew I had surpassed my 88%. This past season was physically the best I have ever felt. 

Driving back home, I was in awe. I went for a walk and I started to think.. I thought about what happened last year and then I thought about my 90%. The flashbacks were coming one after another. I started to almost become afraid of what "could" happen and with everything that was going through my mind I felt like I just wanted to run away.


"There is an unthinking simplicity in something so hard, 
which is why there's probably some truth to the idea 
that all world-class athletes are actually running away from something" 
Lance Armstrong


 I do not want my 90 to drop.   I made a promise to myself that I would do everything I could to not ever go through that again. All I know is that I am not afraid and I am not running away. I just have had enough! My goal was to get out of MA before Halloween.  With the help of my family, and some amazing friends I am successfully in Florida and I feel healthier than ever! It is Halloween; I am not coughing, I have no pain and I can take a full deep breath. I am going to use this time in Florida to Rest, Recover, Rebuild and continue to develop, continue to gain strength so that when I go back overseas I will be the one to make the difference when it counts the most.